Showing posts with label weird dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weird dreams. Show all posts

Saturday, October 4, 2008

a dream within a dream

i thought i've finally freed myself from experiencing weird dreams, but i guess i'll just have to get used to it. like sequels to a movie. last night, i was dreaming of my mom visiting me. for all you know, it hasn't been a year since she passed away. in that dream, i woke up in the middle of the night to find her sitting on a chair in the right side of the bed, watching me sleep, like a mom (she's my mom!) watching her little baby. it was weird because we don't have a chair near our bed. i felt groggy but i was so happy to see mom. we started to have a conversation but i didn't realize i had awakened my husband from his sleep. he asked me who i was talking to. i was about to tell him about mom's presence but she hurriedly ran downstairs and left. i cried because i didn't understand why mom left. hubby said there was no one else in the house but him and me. that's when i remembered that she's already on the other side of the world. and then i woke up and realized it was just a dream.

and then i woke up and realized it was just a dream. a dream within a dream! it was one weird dream, all right. but i was happy to see mom in a good form, even if it's just a dream. i now realize, she's never too far away. we connect through prayers and dreams.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

weird dreams, anyone?

i was taken aback when i recently had some series of weird dreams. they were weird but they felt so real that it had me wondering what these dreams really mean. in one of those dreams, my husband was really mad at me that he sent me mean words through SMS. i thought it's really weird, why would he express his anger through SMS when he would have said it to my face since we are living in one roof? and it was not like my husband at all, totally opposite from the real world. in another dream, i was running so fast just to get to school. it was really weird because i went back to high school. and here's another weird but scary dream -- in my prenatal visit, the doctor told me that there was something wrong with my pregnancy but she said she will not tell me about it, because if she did, i might resort to committing suicide. it felt so helpless in the dream, i kept crying about the situation because another doctor honestly told me that i had "stage 3". there was no mention of cancer, just "stage 3". my head was really confused at that instant and i kept thinking, "what will happen to me?" ... "will i lose my precious baby?" or "will I lose my life?" thankfully, i woke up and realized it was all a dream. a bad dream.

it's not that i haven't been praying before going to bed. hubby and i regularly take turns in leading the prayer. so i got really upset about those weird and bad dreams. it was a relief to find that these weird dreams are common during pregnancy, especially during the second trimester. change in hormones. adjustment to changes in the body, etc. i thought maybe i should pray harder and keep myself more comfortable in bed. and keep bad thoughts about my pregnancy away. the internet can also be a helpful tool for a first-timer like me.

thank God, it's been two days of sleeping minus those weird and bad dreams. if there was any, i can't remember any of it when i woke up.

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