Showing posts with label prayers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label prayers. Show all posts

Sunday, February 21, 2010

my mom's secret wish

I'd like to share my mom's secret wish. She shared it to the Lord in her prayer first. Well, we always share our secrets with the Lord, right?

 
If you can't read this, it says "Lord, I wish  I could make just one book that is one of the best sellers! If one by one all our dreams will come true, please let this be the one."

Even though I know she wasn't able to fulfill her wish because the Lord already made the courtesy call for her to be in Heaven, I can make that wish fulfilled for her pretty soon. If I can't do it myself, then I'll pass it on to my little girl. :-)

So, my secret wish is to fulfill my mom's secret wish. I guess it is no longer a secret, huh?

What about you guys? Would you like to share one of your many secret wishes? *wink*

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

on losing and finding again

I know I need to sleep right now. It is almost two a.m. but I thought I should write about God's goodness. In fact, hubby and I thought of creating a blog that's dedicated only to write about the goodness and greatness of God and anything related to our faith in Him.

First of all, we are not saints or saintly. I mean, we make mistakes, we keep making mistakes. We even miss to go to Sunday mass sometimes for many different reasons that are not sometimes valid. Now, I'm thinking what valid reason can you ever think of for not putting God first? Maybe if you were so sick that you couldn't get out of bed. I also do confess that there were times that I forget to pray before I go to sleep because I would sometimes come to bed already too sleepy to do that. And everytime I wake up, it makes me feel GUILTY everytime I realized I skipped saying my prayers.

Yes, I would feel very guilty because God has been very good to us. We may have trials but He was and is always there to help us. So far, there weren't any trials that didn't have any solutions just when we needed it.

Lately, we started to worry again about a lot of things--things pertaining to financial stability and other concerns. It's always the present and the future that we are worried about. We often ask ourselves, "Why do things happen so unexpectedly?"

Sometimes we come to a point where we question God why He allows unpleasant things to happen. In fact, I felt so sad and depressed about the Maguindanao massacre that's been on the news. When you really think about it, you would really wonder and cry out "Lord, how did you allow these things to happen? Why did you allow such brutal killings?" Yeah, I felt that way when I saw it on the news. And my husband was again quick to remind me that I shouldn't question God. Things always happen for a reason. God has reasons for everything that our human minds sometimes could not understand. Without "leaning on our own understanding," we just simply have to trust in the Lord.

Speaking of unpleasant things, this is a testimony of God's goodness. Effective on the 30th of November, my hubby lost his job. Well, retrenchment news is no real shocker to almost anyone anymore. But in our case, it is still a cause for worry. But we still prayed to God that He will help us in every journey, through victory or difficulty. You know what, it is really true -- God will replace everything that we have lost, we just need to have that faith. On December 1st, he got a new job. God replaced it with an even much-better paying full time home-based job. And now both of us are into home-based. Now, we are going anywhere and wherever God would take us, no questions asked!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

wide awake with random thoughts

some days i feel so sleepy. some days my eyes are wide awake and today is just one of those days. why is this so? i wonder. maybe i've been thinking about my brother's nursing licensure exam. he just took the first set today. he'll have the other set tomorrow. we've been praying to God that he will pass this licensure exam. as you know, it is our tita juliet in new jersey who sponsored for his education. i know that there's nothing else that can make her happy but for him to finally make it to the end. but i'm not only praying that he pass it in order to give delight to our aunt--more than anything else, it's his future i'm so concerned about. i want him to finally feel that sense of fulfillment for himself. that he will already feel what it's like to reap the fruits of your own labor. so here i am again, pleading to God, that he will grant what I have prayed for on my birthday.

the baby is starting to kick me. looks like he/she wanted me to get to bed already, sleepy or not. i'm going and gone now.

p.s.
good luck, jason john! no matter what happens, you're still my brother :)

Monday, November 10, 2008

my defining moment

nobody goes through this life without ever experiencing their "downs", not even the wealthiest of people. when i was still single, i would recall going back home with my folks everytime i feel like i needed some time off to lift my spirit (don't get me wrong, i don't only go home when i'm troubled, i also go home to visit my family and in a happy state). and i would always remember, it's always my mom who notices my unhappy mode and she would always try to get me to talk about it. and from there we would have a long conversation. that's what i missed about my mom. i missed our talks, her warm, caring and thoughtful ways. i guess God would understand why i still feel sad sometimes about losing her too early. i thought it was too early for her to be taken away from us. i thought she'd get to see how i've grown from a helpless lass to a mature lady and an expectant mom. i thought she'd have the chance to see my baby. but we lost her. we lost her to brain aneurysm. we lost her to God. i don't feel bad about it, just sad. i just missed her, that's all. especially now. although hubby or the rest of the family would always be there to listen, you would want to discuss your fears and worries to your mom, right? i don't know so much about being a mom YET (i'm almost there though) but having a mom beside you gives you that certain distinct comfort. since that's not possible anymore, i just prayed to God that He would always guide me to become a good wife and mother like her. and everytime i call on Him, i feel a sense of relief and peace in my heart. makes me want to look forward to more brighter days ahead.

so now, i'm sharing this song to anyone reading this. i hope this will touch your heart as it had touched mine.



my eyes aren't sleepy yet as i've slept almost the whole afternoon. but i'm way past bedtime, so i have to sleep now, even if it would take a lot of counting sheeps.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Bridget Jones: that's not my name! :)

Looking back, I never thought I would ever find someone I would marry. It was even hard to get myself a boyfriend for an inspiration. I guess I’ve never been that attractive to men. While most women have been blessed with good looks and good curves, I have been blessed with brains more than the physical aspect. I’m not saying I’m too ugly to be with anybody. It’s just that I had a lot more insecurities at that time than I can handle. I was young then. I hated it when people and "so-called" friends notice your flaws instead of focusing on the positive things about you. In short, I have always felt less beautiful but I have somehow managed to hide my insecurities by always being the funny and witty girl around. I was always everybody’s friend. I was always the unattached. By being so, I have excused myself from being somebody’s apple of the eye. But it was always my family who saw me as beautiful. My mom would always say I’m a late bloomer, the reason why I haven’t met my guy yet.

I then kept praying to God to liberate me out of my insecurities. That’s when I was able to accept and love myself. Then I started to care for myself even more. I decided I should love myself first before I could love someone else and being loved in return. It didn’t take long for me to feel beautiful after that.

To cut the story short, I had met and dated a few before I met the right one. The first time I saw him, I thought he was familiar. I even said to myself, “This guy would make a good husband.” How in the world did I know that? I barely knew him coz I was a newcomer in the company. At that time, I realized he was very attached with somebody. So instantly I have cut my illusions about him being God-sent for me.

Then I went on with my life being the unattached. Keeping myself busy with my job. And always praying to God. I realized that there are lots of things going on in your head when you’re twenty-something. You’ll start to think about your purpose in life. I kept praying to God for direction.

Two years after, we were already in the same situation, he became unattached. No matter how long you'd be in a relationship, if it isn't meant to be, it isn't meant to be. He courted me when he was already free and ready to be in a new relationship. We've already known each other for years and so it didn’t take long for our personalities to jive.

We got married a year after. And surprised a few colleagues. They didn’t think we would end up to be mister and missus. Or maybe not too soon. Well, surprise, surprise!

Now I’m 18 weeks pregnant. We will be celebrating our first wedding anniversary this month. It hasn’t been a long journey, but so far, we’ve surpassed all the trials that came along. We never stopped praying to God that He would bless our married life. I felt that He did! Who could ask for more?

Saturday, October 4, 2008

a dream within a dream

i thought i've finally freed myself from experiencing weird dreams, but i guess i'll just have to get used to it. like sequels to a movie. last night, i was dreaming of my mom visiting me. for all you know, it hasn't been a year since she passed away. in that dream, i woke up in the middle of the night to find her sitting on a chair in the right side of the bed, watching me sleep, like a mom (she's my mom!) watching her little baby. it was weird because we don't have a chair near our bed. i felt groggy but i was so happy to see mom. we started to have a conversation but i didn't realize i had awakened my husband from his sleep. he asked me who i was talking to. i was about to tell him about mom's presence but she hurriedly ran downstairs and left. i cried because i didn't understand why mom left. hubby said there was no one else in the house but him and me. that's when i remembered that she's already on the other side of the world. and then i woke up and realized it was just a dream.

and then i woke up and realized it was just a dream. a dream within a dream! it was one weird dream, all right. but i was happy to see mom in a good form, even if it's just a dream. i now realize, she's never too far away. we connect through prayers and dreams.

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