Showing posts with label hormones. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hormones. Show all posts

Thursday, October 30, 2008

is it the thought that counts? or the tears that fell?

what else is new? i cried again today. i don't know if i can always blame it to hormones and pregnancy stuff but i've been emotionally unstable lately. my emotions are sometimes uncontrollable. when we got home from work, there was one birthday card waiting for him, with a free fastfood meal ticket as a birthday treat. it's from the telecommunications company. call it pathetic but i really felt so bad that i broke into tears because i didn't get anything for my husband's birthday, not even a simple birthday card, like the one he just received.

i've been meaning to get him something for his birthday but since we always go out and go to work together, i didn't have the chance to sneak around and play the thoughtful wife. i had my chance yesterday morning when we had to file for a leave. we had to go separate directions to save some time--he went out to renew his driver's license while i had to visit my ob gyne for my vitamins. unfortunately, ob gyne didn't show up on time, so i wasted the rest of my time waiting for dra. prima donna (you'll have to excuse me for this name-calling) to arrive. and then after that, it was already time to head back to the office.

anyhow, i guess it's the thought that counts. and the tears that fell. husband knows wife loves him so much. i am dedicating this space to my better half, stephen. here are words for your birthday....

my life partner
my best friend
my soulmate
my husband
thank you
for being the man
i can always lean upon
thank you
for loving me
and letting me be
who i am
thank you for the many ways
you've shown your love and respect
thank you for being honest with me
even from the very start
thank you for the ears that always listen
thank you for the hands that never let me slip
thank you for your heart that cares
thank you for this baby in my womb
i love you...
everything about you...
happy birthday, pangga!

Friday, October 24, 2008

my mom's legacy

i am such a cry-baby. i cry over even the smallest of things--sad commercials, soap operas, sad movie endings, stomach cramps, etc. you can just imagine how it is going with me especially now that i am pregnant. hormones, yes, that's a good guess. or maybe i am just plainly old me!

you see, i was watching my favorite drama on tv "Iisa Pa Lamang" and i felt so bad that i could relate to the sad plight of claudine barretto's character where it got me teary-eyed. in-between commercials, i was also going through our wedding album and found my mom's letter safely kept in one of those picture holders. mommy wrote it for me and stephen the morning after our wedding. i cried again. her letter would always touch my heart even though i've re-read it several times. i realized that this was the last letter she had made for me (and hubby). it pains me still. i'm happy. i'm sad. it's always a roller coaster ride. i'm happy because i know where she is right now. in a safe place. but i'm sad, too. coz i thought she'd still be here for long. i'm looking forward to our wedding anniversary because mom was also a special part of it but it's also nearing december and that's the time we lost her last year. we never even got the chance to celebrate christmas with her. :(

going back to this letter, i would like to share this one on the internet because i'm proud of my mom. she has left me quite a legacy. this was simply written, but was definitely written from the heart.

Everdearest Joanne and Stephen,

Greetings!

You are now entering a new life of togetherness, full of hope and anticipation with all its benefits and obligations that go along with it. Trust and Pray to God alone for help that you both and your future children can triumph over trifles. There are many thorns in every roses, despite the fragrance and beauty they bring. God made it so- so you can learn to render sacrifices when there's trials. Why are there trials? Because our humility is tested - to accept our faults and follies and learn to forgive and be forgiven. Love is so wonderful... if you continue to love each other for better or for worse, in health and sickness. Always try to patch things up before sundown. Don't allow self-pity. Remember you love each other, so be strong against temptations and trials. If you get angry at anything be soft to say it so that it shall not build up to be a wall against harmony. Never allow to forget to eat when hunger urged you to eat. Even if you have misunderstanding, don't use the grace of God - your food on the table - to wait till you're cool. Patch up at once- so that your immune system will be working well with your body and soul. A sick body is a sick soul. Always look at things in positive direction. Always Love God before anything. In everything, in every thought, in every decision - ask GOD for direction. Marriage is so wonderful but 2 must work for it.

Love,
Mom

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