Showing posts with label God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

on losing and finding again

I know I need to sleep right now. It is almost two a.m. but I thought I should write about God's goodness. In fact, hubby and I thought of creating a blog that's dedicated only to write about the goodness and greatness of God and anything related to our faith in Him.

First of all, we are not saints or saintly. I mean, we make mistakes, we keep making mistakes. We even miss to go to Sunday mass sometimes for many different reasons that are not sometimes valid. Now, I'm thinking what valid reason can you ever think of for not putting God first? Maybe if you were so sick that you couldn't get out of bed. I also do confess that there were times that I forget to pray before I go to sleep because I would sometimes come to bed already too sleepy to do that. And everytime I wake up, it makes me feel GUILTY everytime I realized I skipped saying my prayers.

Yes, I would feel very guilty because God has been very good to us. We may have trials but He was and is always there to help us. So far, there weren't any trials that didn't have any solutions just when we needed it.

Lately, we started to worry again about a lot of things--things pertaining to financial stability and other concerns. It's always the present and the future that we are worried about. We often ask ourselves, "Why do things happen so unexpectedly?"

Sometimes we come to a point where we question God why He allows unpleasant things to happen. In fact, I felt so sad and depressed about the Maguindanao massacre that's been on the news. When you really think about it, you would really wonder and cry out "Lord, how did you allow these things to happen? Why did you allow such brutal killings?" Yeah, I felt that way when I saw it on the news. And my husband was again quick to remind me that I shouldn't question God. Things always happen for a reason. God has reasons for everything that our human minds sometimes could not understand. Without "leaning on our own understanding," we just simply have to trust in the Lord.

Speaking of unpleasant things, this is a testimony of God's goodness. Effective on the 30th of November, my hubby lost his job. Well, retrenchment news is no real shocker to almost anyone anymore. But in our case, it is still a cause for worry. But we still prayed to God that He will help us in every journey, through victory or difficulty. You know what, it is really true -- God will replace everything that we have lost, we just need to have that faith. On December 1st, he got a new job. God replaced it with an even much-better paying full time home-based job. And now both of us are into home-based. Now, we are going anywhere and wherever God would take us, no questions asked!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

have i lost my sense of humor?

I have always looked at life as a roller coaster ride. Some days are happy, some days are sad. Today, you’re in trouble, the next day, your happiness is doubled. And whether we like it or not, we will journey through this life with both the bitter and the better things. It’s just a matter of dealing with the bitter and savoring the better—and hopefully, looking forward to the best.

Wow, am I getting serious or what? Have I lost my sense of humor? Being married is not just all fun and romance. It is also a lifetime commitment and obligation to your partner and to the marriage. Having or expecting a baby gives another excitement to the marriage but it also requires an even more serious role for the couple. Talk about trying to make all ends meet. Raising your child with the good and right values. Trying to shape ourselves to become the best parents we can be. This and probably much more.

I’m sure you already know by now that hubby will be out of job effective February 28th. When you really think about it, it’s quite depressing. As his officemate, I’ve seen how serious he is with his job. He’s not the type that just works for the sake of working and getting paid. Unfortunately, he will be one of those who would have to seek for other opportunities elsewhere. We thought it’s just so untimely. It’s not a good welcome gift for the baby. But we’re not about to lose hope. I’ve seen how optimistic he is with getting a new job. And when he is about to lose his optimism, we cling to God for help and guidance.

Long before this retrenchment thing, we’ve been discussing about not being employed in the same company so that when things such as this arise, we’re not about to risk losing both our jobs. We didn’t act upon it right away but it’s just so fortunate that the company is keeping me for now and God only knows for how long. I still feel lucky though. No new company would shelter you with a new job when you’re eight months’ pregnant, right?

Call it a blessing in disguise. Hopefully, he gets his hard-earned paycheck and a separation pay and will be shaking hands with his new employer soon. Take it from the wife who believes so much in her husband—and more importantly, in God’s kindness. We’ve seen how God works. We just got amazed. Every time we feel we’re about to lose hope, help just comes out of nowhere, when we least expect them.

What we’re experiencing now is no joke. But definitely, I still haven’t totally lost my sense of humor. He’s not losing his. Maybe it’s just taking a back seat, for the meantime. When you’re traveling through an unfamiliar road, it’s best to keep your head straight on the road and do some serious driving.

Monday, November 10, 2008

my defining moment

nobody goes through this life without ever experiencing their "downs", not even the wealthiest of people. when i was still single, i would recall going back home with my folks everytime i feel like i needed some time off to lift my spirit (don't get me wrong, i don't only go home when i'm troubled, i also go home to visit my family and in a happy state). and i would always remember, it's always my mom who notices my unhappy mode and she would always try to get me to talk about it. and from there we would have a long conversation. that's what i missed about my mom. i missed our talks, her warm, caring and thoughtful ways. i guess God would understand why i still feel sad sometimes about losing her too early. i thought it was too early for her to be taken away from us. i thought she'd get to see how i've grown from a helpless lass to a mature lady and an expectant mom. i thought she'd have the chance to see my baby. but we lost her. we lost her to brain aneurysm. we lost her to God. i don't feel bad about it, just sad. i just missed her, that's all. especially now. although hubby or the rest of the family would always be there to listen, you would want to discuss your fears and worries to your mom, right? i don't know so much about being a mom YET (i'm almost there though) but having a mom beside you gives you that certain distinct comfort. since that's not possible anymore, i just prayed to God that He would always guide me to become a good wife and mother like her. and everytime i call on Him, i feel a sense of relief and peace in my heart. makes me want to look forward to more brighter days ahead.

so now, i'm sharing this song to anyone reading this. i hope this will touch your heart as it had touched mine.



my eyes aren't sleepy yet as i've slept almost the whole afternoon. but i'm way past bedtime, so i have to sleep now, even if it would take a lot of counting sheeps.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

are you prepared to die?

are you prepared to die? this was asked by the priest during his homily today. this is not the first time that we've heard this question but almost always, this will get us to think and reflect on the way we have lived our lives. have we lived it in a way that is pleasing to God? if we know we would be facing death today, are we really prepared for it?

i've been pondering on this question. i wasn't prepared to accept that mom would be leaving us last year. even when her body was no longer responding to the medicines, even when the doctor told us that the surgery can no longer be done, i was still holding on to the possibility that she will be able to make it. i wasn't prepared for her death then because everything came so fast. eventually, i had to deal with the fact that she's returned to our Creator. more than she is my mom, and dad's wife, she is God's daughter, too.

we will never know how and when we are going to die. but we will all have our time. i guess that should be enough to remind us that everything in this life is temporary. that we should embrace death as a gift from God. death is not the end. it is the beginning. our chance to finally be in communion with God.

am i prepared to die? i've tried to direct this question to myself. it's a bit scary but i thought a lot about it. especially now that i'm pregnant. they say when you're pregnant, your one foot is placed forward, six feet below the ground. well, anything can happen to us between now and tomorrow, awake or asleep. so i'd say, "Lord, your will be done!"

happy all souls day. :)

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Bridget Jones: that's not my name! :)

Looking back, I never thought I would ever find someone I would marry. It was even hard to get myself a boyfriend for an inspiration. I guess I’ve never been that attractive to men. While most women have been blessed with good looks and good curves, I have been blessed with brains more than the physical aspect. I’m not saying I’m too ugly to be with anybody. It’s just that I had a lot more insecurities at that time than I can handle. I was young then. I hated it when people and "so-called" friends notice your flaws instead of focusing on the positive things about you. In short, I have always felt less beautiful but I have somehow managed to hide my insecurities by always being the funny and witty girl around. I was always everybody’s friend. I was always the unattached. By being so, I have excused myself from being somebody’s apple of the eye. But it was always my family who saw me as beautiful. My mom would always say I’m a late bloomer, the reason why I haven’t met my guy yet.

I then kept praying to God to liberate me out of my insecurities. That’s when I was able to accept and love myself. Then I started to care for myself even more. I decided I should love myself first before I could love someone else and being loved in return. It didn’t take long for me to feel beautiful after that.

To cut the story short, I had met and dated a few before I met the right one. The first time I saw him, I thought he was familiar. I even said to myself, “This guy would make a good husband.” How in the world did I know that? I barely knew him coz I was a newcomer in the company. At that time, I realized he was very attached with somebody. So instantly I have cut my illusions about him being God-sent for me.

Then I went on with my life being the unattached. Keeping myself busy with my job. And always praying to God. I realized that there are lots of things going on in your head when you’re twenty-something. You’ll start to think about your purpose in life. I kept praying to God for direction.

Two years after, we were already in the same situation, he became unattached. No matter how long you'd be in a relationship, if it isn't meant to be, it isn't meant to be. He courted me when he was already free and ready to be in a new relationship. We've already known each other for years and so it didn’t take long for our personalities to jive.

We got married a year after. And surprised a few colleagues. They didn’t think we would end up to be mister and missus. Or maybe not too soon. Well, surprise, surprise!

Now I’m 18 weeks pregnant. We will be celebrating our first wedding anniversary this month. It hasn’t been a long journey, but so far, we’ve surpassed all the trials that came along. We never stopped praying to God that He would bless our married life. I felt that He did! Who could ask for more?

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