Friday, January 30, 2009

the real shocker

"If you are weak in a crisis, you are weak indeed."--Proverbs 24:24

today came as a real shocker. i think i feel numb. i don't know what to feel. i had a premonition about this. but a premonition feels different than reality. yes, friends, if you've stumbled upon marie's latest blog, you would already have the idea that we're about to lose our jobs. hubby and the rest of our officemates are given 30 days' notice. call it retrenchment. i won't give the details but it has something to do with a new company owning the project we're working on. technically, they're still keeping me and two others but i don't know for how long, the rest has got to go. eventually, i may have to go, too.

now this is nothing new to me. i've had an experience like this a few years back, it was even quite more worse than this. i was so down and in denial at that time. we got ourselves wasted almost every night because we couldn't believe our company's closing down because we thought we were doing well. but it turned out that i was wrong. eventually, i had to move on.

today, i now realize we should learn to accept things as they are. there's no room for self-pity. we have a baby to raise someday. i am quite optimistic that things will get better for us soon. God knows what He is doing. this won't last very long.

if anyone is touched by this story, please get us a job hehehe. just trying to be funny amidst this difficult time.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

passing the virus

my blogging pastime was once again interrupted because of health reasons. i had to make sure that i regain my health before i start hitting the keys again for this purpose.

about a week ago, i had episodes of diarrhea and fever which really had me worried because i feared that it will do some harm to my baby. despite feeling too tired, i had myself checked at the clinic. i was diagnosed with having this acute gastroenteritis. i thought i would be prescribed with medicines to relieve me of my condition but unfortunately, i was only advised to drink lots of fluids (including a hydrite tablet (to be dissolved in water), an oral rehydration solution) and to eat some bananas. the best part of it was that i was advised to take a rest. it could've meant never having to worry about things at work but eventually i had to pay the price for being sick and away from work because i was also caught up with my deadlines when i got back. come to think of it, i'd rather be pregnant and working rather than be pregnant and sick like that. there's only me and hubby in the house, so naturally, he had to take a leave of absence also to take care of a sick wifey. i didn't really want to appear to be a burden to my husband but i guess i need to work on strengthening my immune system and all. as the doctor puts it, i need to avoid being in places where there are lots of people and crowd as different kinds of viruses and bacteria are lurking around waiting for an opportunity to get into my system. and what's so bad about it, i can't just take any medication given my pregnant state.

there were lot of things that i missed doing because of acute gastroenteritis. for one, my blogging pastime was sacrificed. i missed a lot of nice reads from my friends' blogs. also, i wasn't able to see two of my friends who were here in cebu for a short vacation or visit.

the good news is that i've gotten rid of my diarrhea and fever, as of this writing. the bad news-- i'm constipated! i guess i must have exaggerated a little bit on the banana stuff, LOL. and here's yet another bad news-- hubby is sick! i think i have passed on the virus to him. he's had fever and diarrhea for two days already. what an ordeal! now, it's my turn to take care of him. hmmm, poor hubby. i hope he feels better soon.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

my baby's gender

and the element of surprise was gone last friday -- we are getting a girl!

the polls are right. baby girl wins! unless the ultrasound or the sonologist made a mistake about it because i've read about odd cases like this.

some of my friends made some guesses that i'm getting a boy because to them i didn't look my best. or i looked different from what i used to be. i heard about this a lot of times that i didn't really bother to fix myself up anymore. it's like my subconscious wanted them to be right about it [all right now, i looked awful, so you maybe right, it's a boy]. there was a time my husband asked me why i didn't comb my hair. i jokingly told him, "i'm getting you a baby boy" and we just laughed about it. when i sent dad an SMS telling him that we're getting a girl soon, he said he knew it's a girl. i was touched because in my father's eyes, i looked blooming with my pregnancy. well anyway, all these are anything but guesses. we wouldn't know the baby's gender because of how a pregnant woman looks or through the shape of her belly.

we kept telling everyone we don't care about the gender just as long as the baby's healthy but it was inevitable to have our own preference. at one point i told my husband it's cute to have a baby girl -- i'll dress her up, fix her hair, buy her some cute dolls and toys, etc., but stephen said he's guessing it'd be a boy because my nose got bigger than it used to be. i knew he had hoped for a boy, he just didn't say it aloud. my mother-in-law told him it's normal for a wife to hope for a baby girl and the husband to want a baby boy but eventually the couple will accept what's being given to them. hmmm, hubby will have another girl in his life soon, our future daughter. i just hope she won't turn out to be a spoiled, daddy's little girl.

so what's the next step? we don't have a name yet. we are thinking of combining my mom's and MIL's name. diana pauline or diana paula. nothing's fixed yet. suggestions, anyone?

Thursday, January 15, 2009

my seventh heaven

whoopss, was i gone too long? january really kept me busy. and we're even just halfway through the month. starting today, though, we weren't ask to do a one-hour extension, it looks like our workload and our deadlines have already become manageable. yipee! talk about timing. i was really hoping we could have some free time. just to take a breather. from work. from all the rush. and avoid the stress. when we had a meeting last week, i jokingly lied to our boss that my doctor prohibited me from doing overtime. it didn't sell, anyway. i guess you could say i'm not a natural liar.

care for some pregnancy update? last january 11th, i went to see the ob gyne for my pre-natal checkup. she was surprised to see that i bloated so much. this was the first time that i heard her say i had better slow down on my eating and measure what i eat if i don't want to have problems during labor. oh boy was i embarrassed. i wonder why i feel hungry most of the time. hubby took this seriously and proclaimed himself as my official dietitian. my meals and snacks are now well-guarded and measured. i can't ask for a second helping of rice or viand. i can't eat sweets anymore. i feel deprived but i do understand, he only wants what's best for me and the baby.

today, i'm on my seventh month. my stomach has grown bigger and bigger that i can't see my swelling feet anymore when i'm standing up. at least, that saved me from worrying too much about my edema. and i guess you wouldn't like to see my stretch marks, they're really not a beautiful sight. what a dilemma! it's also getting harder trying to get myself in a comfortable sleep, what with a big stomach and a kicking baby inside. yes, the little one kicks and punches me most of the time. we can even see how my belly would move or shake everytime he/she does that. just as it is hard to get to sleep, it's also hard to get out of bed. i've to get up from my side and use my hands and elbows to push myself up from a lying position. i even experienced this shortness of breath also. i feel like my lungs have been pushed away from where it should be. my kidneys, too! it seems like the little one kicks so hard, makes me want to visit the CR each time.

and oh, i'm still using "he/she" in this post since, as of this writing, we still don't know the sex of our baby. i do agree that it's exciting not to know the sex of the baby until it pops out but for practicality's sake, we wanted to prepare ahead. baby's stuff and baby's name. hopefully, tomorrow, we can get the ultrasound done.

things haven't been very comfortable lately. and i'm not complaining. almost all mom wannabe's go through this. so, bring it on!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

ambush shot

It's been awhile since I've been away from blogging. I apologize to all my friends and readers if you haven't heard anything from me. Been extending an hour more each day, plus work on Saturdays-- whew, beat that! But it's better than not having anything to do at work. That would be pretty boring, too.

Anyway, I'm kinda sleepy at this time of the hour. I'll just take a little intermission and give way to this long overdue tag from Jenneth. So here's an ambush picture of me in the middle of my work. Thanks for this tag, 'net. I haven't forgotten all about this but it has been a busy December and New Year for me hehe. I'm tagging bchai, shan, marie, and vaneza.

Here are the rules:
1) Take a picture of yourself right NOW!
2) DON'T change your clothes, DON'T fix your hair... Just take a picture.
3) Post that picture with NO editing.
4) Post these instructions with your picture.
5) Tag 10 people to do this..

Goin' back to work now. Catch you guys, later.

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